Week 39–Perspectives

Awhile back, my mother commented to me about the fact that I had stopped posting regular pregnancy updates. There really has been a few reasons for this, but the main one had to do with what I had to say. You see, this being my fourth pregnancy, I don’t have the same wide-eyed wonderment that [...]

Five Years Ago Today

Five years ago today, I woke up, showered, got ready and went to work like any other day.
But it wasn’t.
Five years ago today, I sat at my desk and stared at my computer screen, unable to focus my mind and work. I thought about the young woman I had met just a few days earlier. [...]

The Second Pregnancy

As I never did finish my “Journey to Motherhood” series, and I want to keep all of my children in order, I am now going to share with you the story behind my third son, C~. To read everything up to this point, click here.
After W’s birth, we were curious if something had changed with [...]

Faith and Fertility

When I sat down to write my first musing on faith, I encountered a scripture that really stood out to me. Hebrews 11:11-12 says:
11. Through faith also Sara herself received strength to conceive seed, and was delivered of a child when she was past age, because she judged him faithful who had promised,
12. Therefore sprang [...]

Some Stereotypes Exist for a Reason

For instance, the “clueless male” stereotype.
Last night, Sean told the boys that he would try to take them swimming at the YMCA today. For the record, we have never done this. Sean told them they would go “if he could work it out.”
I should have been concerned right then.
This morning, N~ was talking again about [...]

Privilege, Choice, Entitlement, and Minority Rule

I mentioned in my last post that there were discussions in the adoption-blog world that had my head spinning as of late. Tonight, I followed a link to a seven page forum topic where a few adoptive mothers were repeatedly attacked for their decision to adopt, while also being patronized about not having “perspective.” These [...]

Bits and Pieces of Life

Where Did All this Energy Come From?
Last night was the best night’s sleep that I have gotten in a long time. I slept deeper. I tossed and turned less. I only got up once to go to the bathroom. For some reason, even my kids didn’t wake up until eight o’clock. For the first time [...]

Our Adoption Story (Part 1)

I keep wanting to move on with my background story, to write about N’s adoption. And I keep finding other things to write about instead. Maybe it is because I’m having a hard time trying to imagine how I will put such a long story into such a brief narrative. Or maybe it is because [...]

Moving Towards Adoption

“You can always adopt.” That’s how they tried to comfort you. If the testing and the treatment didn’t work, you could always adopt.
Yet somehow you knew that your birth control generation peers meant it–but not really. With their carefully planned conceptions, their glowing storybook pregnancies, their perfect childbirth experiences, their bouncing Gerber babies who looked [...]

Moving Forward, Looking Back

So much of who any of us are is determined by the experiences we have had in our lives. At the age of thirty, a significant portion of my life is shaped by my role as a mother, and by the experiences that have led me to it. Since I started this blog focused on [...]